My Curiously Complex Relief..!

Its curious..
Its complicated..
Yet..
Trust me, it’s is a relief..!

Never thought that it would rejuvenate..
Although it stays highly confined..
But bearing with it has been a habit off late..

Some things are better when they are scattered..
Forcing them in to a box..
Once already has left me shattered..

My life has been redefined..
Although it stays highly confined..

I am glad it all turned up finally this way..
And makes me smile all the day..!

..I am my own critic..!

I'm sorting my life out..
Yeah..!
I'm writing poetry..!
Despite the bad times..
Busting rhymes..! Without the lyrics..!

'Cause I am my own critic
and I'll tell you now,
I'm a cynic..!'

I get obsessed with things easily..
I am loud at times and quiet at times..
I talk about random things to prevent silence..
I am quick to judge, but always give people a chance..

I give myself false hopes..
I like people whom I talk to..
I assume things..
I over think everything..!

I forget important things..!
I remember stuff that doesn't matter..

I am self conscious..
I worry about what others think..!
I say stupid things..
I believe everything people say..

I have so many flaws..
So many imperfections..
Things that need improvements..
And things that need to be learned..!

I am aware of all of this..
And I wish others could understand..
I wish they would give me a chance..

I wish I could find somebody..
Patient enough to learn all my flaws and imperfections..
And love me for me..!

I wish I could learn how to accept myself..
And not want to change the things
That make me, ME..

..Never.. Always..!!

My mind has begun to play its own rythm 2day..!!
My feet once stilled are dancing 2day..

A drumbeat pulsates through my being..!!
Awakeing the muzic in mah soul..
Evry breath i tak iz filled wid joy..!!
Mah heart iz now singing..

I hav begun 2 believe in mah self..!!
I can swing up 2 d cloudz..
I can c beyond de horizon..

De wind beatz against mah skin..!!
De fieldz nd sandz reach out 2 meeh..
D rosy li8 f dawn washes away..!!
D darknss of de ni8..

I open mah doorz 2 a fresh new world..!!
I bask in mah aloneness..

Clouds f chnge envelope mah mind..!!
As solitude comes 2 meeh in ol her majesty..
I c wid mah eyes d many hued world..!!
Itz season beckon..
I open mah yez unlock mah soul..
I find my voice..!!

Mah soulmate lives within..
I m no longer alone..!!
I m own friend..
My own companion I am ..!!
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..Shaded White..!!

Memories Play A Confusing Role,

They Do, Yes, They Do..

They Make You Happy,

They Make You Sad..

They Make You Sappy,

They Make You Glad..

Every One Has Memories,

Either Me You Or He..

There Might Have Been Times,

When You Would Have Laughed Together..

But Remembering That Now,

Would Make You Cry Altogether..

What Seems To Be Your Future Today,

Would Become Your Past One Day,,

And Then,

There Would Be You,

Standing Alone Remembering It Some Day..

Life Is Like A Short Story.

We Live Together,

To Create Lifetime Memories..

Today Remembering The Gone Days,

A Tear Rolls Down And Falls Away..

But Still Some Say,

“Don’t Hold On To The Past”

I Think It’s Too Much To Ask..

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..Trace elements..!!

In A Glass I Filled My Past,
To Have A Better Look At It..

I Had The Perception,
That I Was The Captain
Of Mah Soul And Fate,.

How Wrong I Was, How Wrong I Was,
To Have Thought Of Such A Stupid Game..

Such People Crossed My Ways
Who Merely Used Me And Threw Me Away..

God Punished Me And He Severely Punished Me,
For Being The One Who Was Betrayed..

It Is A Journey Of Decades,
That Would Take Mah Life
But Would Still Remain Unexplained..

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